I know i've been a putz and dropped off the face of the earth...but I have had a good reason. My life went to hel almost 3 months ago, I became depressed, and school needed my attention and i'm raising 5 kids.
I've spent a night in jail, am facing four charges because i tired to keep chad from losing his job. Wel he was stupid and lost it anyways. So I may have ruined my
future in vein.
I am so depressed and I have no where to go and nothing to do to alive it.
I may have hep B or C thanks to my back sugrey. The doc says my liver enzymes are elevated.
I want to go to a stinking one day conference for Linux, but can I .... NO. I don't know what has happened to me. But I have become way to compliant to my family and that witch of a mother of chads. I am letting people tel me what to do and how to do it. I have to consider everyone else but me.
Well what the mother's and g'ma don't know is..I am going to FL for that conference. I can use my left over school money if I use it for educational reasons. I will be learning about the open source operating system Linux.
Schools going good though. I still have good grades and the bratlings are fine.
The hits keep on comming. G'ma is in the hosp with a viscous UTI and my stupid mother is refusing to let me come see her. She says g'ma don't need any stress.
Randi...why can't you see your grandmother...I would go and see her any ways or maybe you can call her and talk to her...Your mom can't stop you from seeing or talking to your grandma...
Mom is stopping me. She wont give me g'ma room phone and wont let me talk to her on her cell. She says i will stress g'ma out. So basicaly my mom is being a b*tch and thinking she is the only one who cares.
I'm under SO much stress and no one can understand why i need to get away. To be frank...i almost went back to cutting because I have no other outlet.
But i am talking with my fellow programmers trying to get a con for after july. Hopefully I will have my money by then.
Oh Randi...I am glad you are posting on here and not going back to cutting...My heart goes out to you...
Why don't you call the hospital and talk to your grandmother,your mom cannot stop you from talking to her no matter what she is telling you...maybe you need to stand up to your mom and not let her tell you what you can and can't do...
I went through that with my sister not letting me speak to my own mother...needless to say I don't talk to my sister and haven't in 18 years...
Remember I am only a click away...
Hugs to you...
May 9th,2009~2 Year SCLC Survivor... April 6th,2009~17 Year Breast Cancer Survivor...
I'm sorry it's happening to. I'm entrenching myself in the programming world. So far I am having fun. They are my type of people. Crazier than the normal crazy.
Randi, stay strong and remember we're keeping you in our prayers. Like Theresa said, call your g'ma at the hospital and let her know you're thinking of her. I'll also be praying for her to get well soon.
Hugs, Paula
I know long time.... 
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